And A Whole Day had Passed

(Sat, 13/07)
This morning was unbearably cold. I rolled myself under my warm, fluffy blanket. I was about to step into my dreamland when my mom yelled outside forcing me to leave my lair. I went outside with my blanket, and I slept on a sofa.

1. Roll the Drums, the Day has Come!
"...is this the arm, or the head?"

I always carelessly buy anything that caught my eyes. Unfortunately, my eyes caught everything wrong. Almost everything. I kind of made a gamble when I decided to buy a model kit. Frankly, I've never been into 'build a model kit' world so I got really nervous this morning. I opened the box and I found the steps to build the figure. Okay, the last thing I ever built is my 1:100 model of art gallery (I designed it) and it was rubbish.

When I realized it, I plucked one part of the figure.
"Now you have no turning back," said Blackbird, the long lost brat.

2. Pincers and Toothpicks Came to the Rescue
"So small, so fragile, so..nerve-wracking"

I started with the body parts. Everything went awkwardly well, until I had to deal with the stickers. They're really small and fragile, so I had to be very careful to stick them. Sometimes I placed them a little bit too high or too low, and even misplaced with other part. Also, I need pincers to stick the small parts and I need toothpicks to stick the smaller parts like the flashy purple dots on the legs (see the finished pic). Anyway, I finished the body part in 40 min approx. Thanks to stupid Blackbird who misinterpret the instruction.

3. Hey there, Handsome 
"The only thing I understand from Nathan Seymour, the Fire Emblem, is..."

Next, I worked on the head parts. The head was built of some small parts, and I almost lost one of them. When I finished, I know it's time to place the stickers again. First attempt, I missed the eyes mark by 0.5 mm. Second attempt, it was even worse, I missed by 1.5 mm. In the end, I still missed it a little bit, but yeah whatever, I don't think it's a big matter.

"Call me crazy or whatever, but I think he's handsome," said Blackbird after I finished the head.
"Indeed"
I stared for a while on the head. Creepy.

4. Conscience lv Above 9000
"Right or Left? Ain't they the same?"


Moving to the arm parts. This part has right and left side. The instruction becomes more complicated with warnings and signs I barely understand. "Calm down, use your instinct like usual" said Blackbird. "Yes, and I'll ruin this like I did on my second studio project, thank you." I misplaced the lower arm and the shoulder. I rearranged them and finally I had one arm. Yeah. One more arm to go.. And do't forget the stickers. I struggled on sticking the lines and the small dots. I surprisingly finished the arms in 75 min approx. And my problems still go on because I still had right-left legs part, which fortunately easier than the arms. I finished the legs in 30 min.

5. The Real Problem is...
"Uh-oh, what's wrong with the joints?"

I finished all parts, now it's time to combine those parts into one figure. I know this is the real problem. Once I make a mistake in this stage, all of my efforts gone with the breezy wind. The head joined with the body easily. The legs had a bit problem with the body. It's quite hard to attach the joints on the body, I was afraid it would broke if I pushed too much. But in the end it attached quite normally. The hardest part is the arms. I tried many times to attach them. Once they're attached, they easily fell when I tried to rotate the joints. After a long time, finally I can attached them firmly. One last thing to do, placing the transparent logo marks. I stick them without hesitation, and I made a huge mess on one of them.

6. Exhausted
"I'm really sorry, Bunny-chan, but I can't afford Tiger-san"

Bunny is done. Yaaay. But he'll be alone for a moment, because I don't have Tiger now. I'll try to afford him someday, so just wait, Bunny ^^

>>>>>>>>

7. Extra
"Tolong jemput ade di balkot ya"

Begitu kata mama, di sore yang diguyur hujan. Astaga, baru juga mau mulai gambar... Aku berangkat dengan berat hati. Adikku bikin tugas kelompok dari pagi sampe sore. Dia baru masuk SMA, makanya kena dikerjain senior-seniornya. Disuruh bawa yang aneh-aneh, plus tampilan aneh-aneh. Namanya juga kakak, kalo adik lagi ada masalah, pasti si kakak kecipratan juga. Pulang jemput adik, aku bantu ngerjain bikin rok rumbai dari tali rafia dan memecahkan kode. Jadi inget cerita temen. Waktu ospek jurusan, mereka disuruh bawa barang tapi barang-barangnya disebutin pake kode. Salah satunya bawa 'keringat dalam botol' yang artinya minuman p***ri s**at. Salah satu temen dia bawa botol dengan sedikit air di dalamnya. Pas ditanya senior itu apa, temennya itu jawab dengan polos, "Keringat dalam botol, kak" Lalu semua orang ketawa sampe nangis. Ospek biasanya cuma nyusahin, mungkin aku ngga akan pernah ngerti ospek buat apa.  


    

Thank you and Thank you!!

Hi all, long time no see. I recovered from my mournful state rather slowly (and now I almost crying again while listening to MCR's songs). Anyways, there'd been so many things happened in recent months, but I was too busy with my works and my lj account to write my blog, so I deeply apologize.

1. Real procrastinator to the bone, A sore loser, now A lavish brat
"I eat books, yes, thank you!!"

Since I started making money myself , I began to spend money bigger than usual. Mainly in books. Last week I spent my holiday in some fancy city. One day, I went to a business district there and I spent quite an amount of money in no time. The next day, same thing happened. I bought some Japanese comics and some art supplies for my work. Not 'the end' yet, two days ago I got a message from my friend. He said he was in an event and he saw something that I might interested in, so he text me. That 'something' was really my 'thing'. So I picked my phone and we had a pretty hard negotiation, since I was economically broke. Almost. However, I ended up buying the item. I really need to make more comics and illustrations to make up my loss..

2. My lair, My rules,...oh My
"How can you sleep here, in the middle of these rubbish? I can barely see the floor! I's covered with paper and books!!"  
"Hell, I really want to burn them all since they're remains of my college tasks"

I left my room for two weeks, and I realized how fantastic my room is. Before I went to some fancy city to spent my holiday, I used to slept soundly in my oh-so-wonderfully-arranged room. When I got home, the only word I blurted was "yuck". Almost everything in my room is misplaced, abandoned, torn, and dust-covered. The only clean space in my room is my working spot, 50x40 cm approximately. Architect student, they said..

3. That escalated rather quickly
"You guys can go first, I've got other thing to do"

That was my words to my friends who kindly spent their precious time on my foolishness. Yes, I'm a despicable being, as a friend nor a solitary human, I know. For that, I deeply apologize to you, N and S. I hope you guys read my blog and my belated apology.

Back to the story. I left my friends to see my other friend I haven't see for ages. I missed the old times when I spent so much times talking nonsense with him, I had so much fun then. Sorry for being a bit melancholic, but I want to write this story. That day when I met him again, we walked around the venue (there was an event in one nearby institute), we chit-chatted and laughed, just like the old times. Haha, I love it. We met so much people, all of them are my friend's...uh...friends. And acquaintances (there's other story about that, but I'm going to keep it for myself, sorry). 6 p.m. and we decided to go home. Together. Hahaha, I'll never forget that one moment in life (please understand that I'm being excited now).

4. Basically it's posts and lintels
"To you architecture students out there... I'm a student just like you too"

Since my architectural design studio went not quite well this semester, I guess it's too late to feel sorry for myself. Guilt and denial comes after they said, and it's true. I'm in the verge of my too-early-ending-career as a freelancer and my only chance I got is my mark, which I thought might need a handful of miracles and pixie dust only to get a C. At least that's what my mother sees. I want to share my stupidity and failures so that nobody run into the same silly mistakes like I do.

Design is about liberty. No one in this world has right to judge 'right' or 'wrong' on one's design. But, one thing to remember, everyone might 'like' or 'dislike'. It may confines a design. In my case, I think too much on those restrictions it made my mind stuck for a long time. Designs, especially architectural designs, may have some rules and restrictions. But when it comes to early concept and idea, never let your creativity held back. Once you hold yourself back when making concept, you're dead. After you firmed and satisfied with your splendid concept, you may follow the theory or other rules and make your design suitable with both concept and theory.

We are students who specializes in designing, for me, in architectural issues. And we are young. Usually youngsters in our age (18-22 years old approx.) are emotionally unstable and easily goes on with the flow. 'What's emotion do to design' you might ask. Earlier I mentioned that design is about liberty. If you're emotionally under pressure, how come you feel the liberty? I was in a really great study group in the first semester. My friends in the group are kind, easy-going guys, and supporting each other. I felt wonderful and my design went out just easily and quite brilliant. Second semester came and I unfortunately got a bunch of people I slightly avoid because of their attitude to others. I felt alone and somehow pity to this new formation. This condition affected my designing and working progress quite badly and it escalated really quick. In the end, I got carried away with my emotions. As a student, especially in their first year, this actually happen and it's natural. But we must learn and try not to carried away too much because we're aiming to be a professional, so act like one, not a crybaby.

Time management. Almost everyone's main problem. Making schedule is easy, just write down our 'things to do' according to the time. The problem started when we prone to do things according to the schedule. My biggest mistake is being off-schedule since I was in junior high. I wasted too many times while I worked myself out when my deadlines came. Well, I can't say much about this problem since I need help myself, so I just warn you readers about this serious matter. Remember, one who can control the time own the world. Who doesn't want the world in their hands?

My last words for now, idea never come when you think about it. Believe me.

>>>>>>

By the way, this is the 'thing' in my story number one
Well.... I guess it's worthy amount of money :3        

   

Your Memory Will Carry On

"...if you stay I would even wait all night
or until my heart explodes
(how long?) until we
find our way in the dark and way out of harm
you can run away with me
anytime you want" -Summertime

This afternoon I saw my friend wrote on her facebook wall said that My Chemical Romance had broken up. I stared on her status for some minutes to understand her words. I wrote a comment on her status telling it was a bad joke, but she said otherwise. It was true. MCR has officially dead. Unconsciously, I cried while reading the news and their last words on their official website.

"..it was the roar of the crowd
that gave me heartache to sing
it was a lie when they smiled
and said you won't feel a thing
and as we ran from the cops
we laughed so hard it would sting..." -Disenchanted

They are not just a band. Their songs had inspired me since I was in junior high, until now. Especially their songs on The Black Parade album. They made me realized what life is and ought to be. They had been a part of my life since then. And now they're gone. I still can't believe they decided to split up after all this wonderful time they get along very well, despite that they had different drummers on each album they made.

The legend is no more. But memories of them will remain and keep inspiring thousands of people who listen to their songs. "We'll carry on".

My Chemical Romance (2001-2013)

One Convenient day in a Convenience Store

"Tumben makhluk ini muncul lagi!"
"Biarin aja, mumpung lagi semangat curhat"







1. Hail Thou, o Lord of Seven o'clock in the Morning, I'm Awake...
"Jam 8 yaa kalo udah nyampe sms"
*jarum jam menunjukkan pukul 7.20*
"HHAAAAAA!!!!"
*lompat dari tempat tidur*

Hari ini aku janjian sama temen mau belajar digital coloring. Janjiannya jam 8 di sebuah convenience store depan kampus. Jam 7 aku baru bangun. Hebat. Udah gitu, masih pake males-malesan dulu di kasur lagi. Ini namanya penyakit liburan di sela-sela UTS. Buat anak-anak arsi di kampusku, hari-hari UTS itu ditunggu banget, soalnya kita bebas dari tugas yang biasanya numpuk tanpa ampun.

Oke, lanjutin ceritanya. Aku pergi jam 8 tepat. Aku janjian jam 8 tepat. Jam 7.58 temenku sms nanyain aku di mana, aku jawab masih di jalan. Padahal aku masih di kamar beresin tas. Anak baik, harap jangan tiru. Aku nyampe di tempat janjian jam 8.15, berkat supir angkot yang baik ngga ngetem. Langsung aku cari tempat paling tersembunyi di sana -kami ngga suka diliatin orang kalo lagi gambar, harap maklum- terus aku langsung sms temenku. Aku menunggu.......

2. I Saw! I Saw! I Saw a Polar Bear!!
"Toko ini jelas bukan tempat buat orang jantungan"

Sambil nunggu temenku, aku mulai nyiapin bahan-bahan dan peralatan buat latihan. Aku mulai dengan ngerapihin lineart. Sepuluh menit kemudian, temenku datang. Kita sempet ngobrol-ngobrol sebentar, sekalian meramaikan suasana lantai dua convenience store yang sepi, sebelum kita mulai latihan dan nyari-nyari tutorial di internet. Aku yang datang duluan mulai merasa kedinginan. Karena temenku datang belakangan dan dia pake celana dendek selutut, sendal, dan kaos doang, aku kira temenku itu lagi kepanasan. Aku jadi ngga enak mau ngajak pindah.

Sejam berikutnya, aku udah ngga tahan. Aku beli kopi panas. Ruangan di toko itu dinginnya ngga waras. Belum sepuluh menit aku beli kopi, si kopi panas udah jadi kopi anget-anget kuku. Akhirnya temenku ngomong, "Dingin ya?" Aku nyengir aja.

Jam 2, aku keluar beli makan. Meskipun kita nongkrong di convenience store, makanan di sana harganya ngga bersahabat dengan kantong mahasiswa. Jadi aku sama temenku beli makan keluar. Begitu keluar, aku langsung merasakan panasnya dunia luar yang sama ngga warasnya. Panas banget. Aku langsung beli makanan buat aku sama temenku, terus balik lagi ke tempat nongkrong. Buka pintu, aku serasa diterjang badai salju.

Jam 3, karena udah ngga tahan di dalem ruangan, akhirnya kita pindah ke teras di lantai 2. Hangat. Dan bau rokok. Ngga ada pilihan.

3. You've Got a Pure Merchants Soul in You, Bro!
"Maket SAA itu jaman sekarang 3-4 juta, mau gimana lagi..."

Rencananya, aku mau gambar bareng temenku itu sampe jam 3 aja, soalnya dia udah ada janji sama senior mau les AutoCad. Seniornya datang ke meja kita. Kebetulan lita ketemu di sana. "Bentar ya, gue asistensi tugas dulu" Dan dia pun pergi lagi meninggalkan segala barang bawaannya di meja. Senior itu udah SAA (tingkat akhir), tapi masih sibuk sama tugas kelompok? Kalo aku sih bakal bilang "yes, thank you, but no, thank you. I've got my life to be fixed first"

Jam setengah 5 seniornya balik lagi. Aku langsung ditawarin apa mau les sama dia atau ngga. Aku masih ragu-ragu. Akhirnya dia suruh aku duduk di situ sambil gambar, sambil perhatiin cara dia ngajarin temenku. Aku ngga boleh ikut dengerin soalnya ngga bayar. Auch. Tapi, cara dia ngajarin temenku itu cukup meyakinkan. Akhirnya aku tertarik nanya-nanya soal hari dan bayarannya. Mulai terjadi tawar menawar sambil debat tentang untung-rugi. Akhirnya, aku memutuskan untuk mikir-mikir dulu. Wah, dia sangat berjiwa dagang....

4. Back to My Sacred Lair
".....Sekarang hari Jumat kan???? DEADLINE GUE.......HARI APA?"
*shriek*

Aku pulang jam setangah 6, takut ngga ada angkot. Pas naik angkot, aku baru inget ibu nitip belanjaan. Oh well, sudahlah, ntar aja belinya di mini market di depan sekolahku dulu.. Toh kalo beli di tempat aku nongkrong tadi pasti harganya lebih mahal... Begitulah, lalu aku sampai di rumah.

Di rumah, aku beresin belanjaan dulu baru masuk kamar. Pas naro tas di lantai, aku ngelirik meja. Naskah komik masih kosong, yang penuh cuma storyboardnya. Aku langsung tutup pintu kamar. Dari luar.

5. Castle of Glass
"...cause I'm only a crack in this castle of glass
Hardly anything there for you to see
For you to see..."

Aku dapet ide buat gambar ilustrasi. Dan, sekali lagi, komik terbengkalai... Lalala... Maafkan aku, bos, tapi Linkin Park terlalu keren untuk dikesampingkan.... *RAWR

Of Love and Hate

Tuturuuuu~
Akhirnya gue muncul lagi di sini, setelah sekian lama menggali dan berselancar di tempat lain yang hasilnya adalah penumpukan data di salah satu bagian di laptop saya.

1. Story this far...
"Kadang-kadang kalo kita berdoa minta sesuatu itu langsung dikabulkan, tapi ngga jarang juga dikabulkan belakangan..., di waktu yang kurang tepat."

Tugas kuliahku gagal totaaaal.... *cryoutloud* oke, LUPAKAN. Entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini aku merasa asing dengan lingkungan sekitar. Dugaan pertama, mungkin karena terlalu fokus sama kerjaan baru. Dugaan kedua, yang paling possible, karena kebanyakan vitamin D (doujin) dan Y (if u know what I mean) yang bikin aku pengen cepet pulang dan buka laptop nyari update di forum. Gara-gara hal ini juga, aku jadi stress sendiri. Bayangin aja, cuma dengan buka pintu kamar, rasanya ada di dunia lain yang entah ada di mana. Serem banget kan, bayangin apa yang terjadi kalo udah nyampe kampus. Apalagi sampe masuk studio. Rasanya udah pengen lompat balik ke rumah, masuk kamar, bergulung di dalem selimut, buka laptop.

Makanya, tadi siang aku sempet jalan-jalan sebentar sambil refreshing isi otak yang udah ngga karuan. Aku pergi ke toko buku. Di sudut toko buku yang terpencil, di antara jejeran novel-novel alay ala manusia Indonesia modern, aku menemukan...SEBUAH KOMIK.

Bukan komik biasa!! Ini komik buatan senior-seniorku, yang sekarang udah pada sukses dan jadi inspirasiku. Setelah nemu, beli (ngga ngutang!), dan baca komik ini..., my mind went fully refreshed... Aku jadi dapet mood buat nerusin kerjaan (which I really need), dan jadi makin semangat buat ngelatih skill manual art. It's just that simple, and now my mind is completely aware of my surroundings. GREAT.

2. Procrastination is a friend, ah..
"Mei, tugasnya jangan lupa dibawa minggu depan yaa"
"Iyaaa"
*now let's have fun until the day before 'next week'*

Ada orang yang belajar dari kesalahan. Ada juga yang ngga mau belajar dari kesalahan. Tapi yang paling parah dan nyakitin, ada yang mau tapi ngga bisa belajar dari kesalahan. Menunda pekerjaan itu masalah yang paling krusial, buat aku. Ngga tau udah berapa kali aku kena karma akibat nunda kerjaan dan tugas. Anehnya, aku ngga bisa lepas dari kebiasaan procrastinating. Lebih parah lagi, dari semua temanku, bisa dibilang tiga perempatnya adalah Gods and Goddesses of procrastination. Makin parah deh kebiasaan aku itu. Well, kalo di antara para pembaca ini pernah mengalami dan survive dari masa-masa suram menunda pekerjaan, aku minta saran dong -_-;

3. You're so close, yet so far away
"Huahahahahaha, dengan suplai vitamin 'D' dan 'Y' sebanyak 3x.x GB, gue ngga takut jadi Forever Alone!!"
*ring, u have 1 facebook message*
message: "Meeeeiiiii"
"Oh..... dia....."
*pokerface*

Entah kenapa kalo lagi ngarep banget pasti ngga akan datang, tapi kalo lagi ngga ngarep suka datang sendiri... Berlaku pada seluruh benda, hidup atau mati, kecuali duit or money.

4. About common used terms.. well, this is totally random thought
"Nanti kalo udah lulus kayaknya aku ngga bakal jadi arsitek, malah jadi ibu rumah tangga doang ini mah"

Gitu kata salah satu temenku waktu kita ngobrol di kampus nungguin kuliah berikutnya. Ada satu hal yang jadi pikiran aku waktu itu. Ibu rumah tangga. Kenapa ibu rumah tangga?

Secara istilah, ibu rumah tangga berarti perempuan yang bertanggung jawab untuk menjaga kelangsungan hidup keluarga, membantu peran kepala keluarga. Berarti peran ibu rumah tangga bisa dibilang cukup vital dalam pelaksanaannya. Kalau mau disesuaikan dengan kondisi tersebut, kenapa namanya ngga ibu kolom balok? Soalnya, dalam arsitektur, kolom dan balok merupakan elemen struktural yang menopang seluruh beban pada bangunan. Jadi, perannya sangat krusial. Beda sama tangga, yang cuma elemen arsitektural dan ada hanya karena faktor utilitas saja. Umumnya. Gitu pikirku.

Waktu aku bilang gitu, semua temenku di situ langsung pokerface. Aku langsung ketawa, terus pergi ke kelas tempat kuliah berikutnya berlangsung.

Oke, aku tau ini ngga penting. Sama sekali ngga penting.

5. Last but not least...
"Kuberi kamu nama... Suzuki-san"

I've got a graphic tablet! Yay!! Yang lebih penting lagi, status pembayarannya lunas!! Yeahh!! Dengan begini, aku akan menghemat penggunaan kertas... Dan menambah alasan untuk menunda pekerjaan..... *digampar*